I wonder if we can ever fully grasp Gods mercy.  For me it began as in idea, a theoretical knowledge of a quality of God.  A trite personal practice that I exhibit when some one wrongs me…. my definition of mercy was seriously lacking.

Perhaps a true understanding of Mercy comes with age, experience, maybe the experience of things that you would never ask for.  This is true for me.  My journey of mercy has take a turn to deeper water.  In the last few years I have had  a handful of personal experiences that quite frankly I would have liked to be blissfully ignorant, walking around in my happy bubble of ignorance.

Most recently I woke up from a dead sleep having had a profound ( God forbid prophetic) night mare.  Upon waking I was confronted with a personal reality so profound, an inescapable truth so heart breaking, I wept.  Not the few tears down the cheek, but heart broken weeping.  The powerlessness of my newly gain perspective, threatened to snatch my heart, my will.  And so in this moment, like a few others over the last few years, I fell to my knees, having reached yet again the end of myself, begging for God’s mercy.  “Im so sorry Lord, please spare me from this Lord, let it not be too little too late…”

Powerless to change the current reality, begging for Mercy from the one who has all power and is Merciful…

Maybe some of you know the feeling… have prayed such a prayer once or many times… I will be praying this week for you too… Im sure Im not alone… “God please have mercy”

This entry was posted on Thursday, November 19th, 2009 at 12:04 pm and is filed under tom's thoughts.